now, now, now

There are these days, these days when I struggle to find the here and now, these days when I feel so torn between here and there and wander from this to that, vague? yes, exactly.   It is in these days that I do have to try harder to see what a wonderful life this is, but even though I do have to try harder, I still see it and I still know it. You don't have to tell me I have a good life, you don't have to remind me that I have been blessed, you don't because I already know. That doesn't mean I do not have days where I want to hide under the covers with a pile of books that can immediately take me to far away lands that I borrow as my own just for awhile.      ~       I woke up this morning feeling relieved about a few things that have been weighing heavy, it is always a good feeling to wake up welcome the day and on a Monday....   The alarm went off and I hit the snooze, allowing me seven more minutes to snuggle up with my two little snugglebugs, both in bed with me, still so sleepy from staying up a little later than usual to watch Ratatouille.  I took the night off from the studio and watched (laughed) with them while knitting a scarf that I have not had much time to work on.  As much as I wanted and needed to get into the studio to paint, I clearly need this so much more.  Today... I think I would like to bake a chocolate cake from scratch.  How about you? What would you like to do today?

Here is a song that is guaranteed to make you feel like dancing...... 

"What if a demon were to creep after you one night, in your loneliest loneliness, and say, 'This life which you live must be lived by you once again and innumerable times more; and every pain and joy and thought and sigh must come again to you, all in the same sequence.  The eternal hourglass will again and Agni be turned and you with it, dust of the dust!'  Would you throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse that demon?  Or would you answer, 'Never have I heard anything more divine'?  ~  Friedrich Nietzsche

Comments

[nina]

of course i would not want to live through it all again - like we have talked about sooo many times, it is like eternal sunshine of the spotless mind: if we were to wipe out all that we remember, for wont of forgetting the pain, we would also wipe out the sweetness and the ecstasy. while i am grateful, o! so grateful for all of the sweetness, i would not want to live through the horrors of the pain and utterly dibilitating sadness again. life is sweet that way: we wake up the next day and have a fresh start. i am grateful for our late night talks, for our clarity after having mulled over the dilemmas we openly share with one another, grateful for your presence, grateful for your love. yes, i know you are aware of your blessings - that is abundantly clear.
i am so so so so SO looking forward to our next adventures - i love you - xoxoxoxoxo

[nina]

ps. nice tree ;)

[Shari Beaubien]

Even if you've been in a funk, it looks like you've produced some pretty amazing work! And if you feel like going inside yourself for a while, then you're perfectly entitled to do that and feel whatever it is you're feeling. Love and hugs, Shari

[Sare-Bear]

Its just amazing that you can be in that place of wanting to escape, but still create such moving works of art! You inspire me, girlfriend!

[Judy Wise]

Everything you say is said with grace, beauty and wonder. You make me quiet and open my eyes up very wide to take in this unknowable mystery. You amaze me.

[shari]

lovely new work misty. i hope you get to make your chocolate cake. i'm going to enjoy girls night tonight. i'm making orange ricotta pancakes. xox

[Sharon at Norah'S]

and will you eat the cake too?
Thank you for sharing 7 more beautiful pieces of yourself.
xo

[suz]

oh friend,

your talent has no boundaries - no limits. :)

[ruby]

wow, wow, wow!! stunning artwork...as always!

[Eileen Weigand]

Hi Misty,
These days are so achingly gray, aren't they? The works you have created out of these feelings of gratitude as well as a bit of sadness are stunning!

I would like to make some humus- not too ambitious, but tasty!

I would dive in after that demon told me about my fate!
xo Eileen

[Sue Who Doesn't Like To Be Photographed]

About Neitzsche -- Sometimes I would throw myself down and wail and sometimes I would sigh and say, OK, because at least there are a lot of good times and I always kept trying to do my best, even when everything went wrong.

How about you?

Is the cake done yet? Can I come over?

[Sue Who Doesn't Like To Be Photographed]

Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you how much I loved those paintings or journal pages. They hit the spot today.

[lucy]

Sometimes I get lost in the what ifs and coulda, shoulda, woulda's of my life. In the end, I truly believe things happen for a reason and it's a progressive story playing out before my eyes as I take the wheel, making some wrong turns along the way. The good news is, the scenery is beautiful no matter which way I've turned, as long as I've taken the time to soak it in. Perhaps next time I'll remember which is the right way, if there is one. I still have days though when I wish I could escape in my books, art, or snuggled up in bed for long periods of time and forget the real world around me. Then the light of new day comes and I feel refreshed again. Sometimes all it takes is a break, whether it's a day or an hour to rejuvenate all the stress my body and mind feels.

Your work is lovely and so moving. I admire all that you do!

[katie]

your art transports me to a strange and beautiful land, and oh how i love to go there - i never know what i'll find or who i'll meet but it's sure to penetrate deeply in my heart. your varied mood and emotions are translated for us through your art, such a gift you have. i miss you so much!
xox

[Diane Duda]

Today I feel like adding bunny ears to all my old family photos. (or to copies of them anyway)

Hope the cake went well!
Ratatouille made me laugh too. :)

xo
Di

[darlene]

there is so much incredibly beauty dancing across this page, i think i want to go dancing through the trees now but that is not to be so will dance inside my head through my afternoon ...

mmmm chocolate cake from scratch, the very bestest kind :)

[Julie H]

What a visual treat Misty. All of your new artwork is wonderful - and so many different emotions. today I want to tuck my head in and be still. Is this a journal page or a canvas? Your photos are mesmerising, I love seeing where you live through the lense.

It sounds like you are enjoying your children! As a teacher I see so many who are nuicances to their parents - I get all choked up reading this.

[rachelle]

Hi Misty, reading this makes me want to stay home tomorrow with my sons, do what makes us happy and create a quiet, calm, safe place full of good feelings. Unfortunately that would bore them. They are not little anymore. Still the thought of it is nice. I wanted to say that I think your art work is simply arresting. Happy thoughts to you.

[Isabel]

Nina introduced me to your blog a while back, and every time I come for a visit and read your words all I can feel is...how true and honest you are. How we can all relate to them in our own lives.
That is a wonderful quality-how you reveal your essence through your words, your children, your photos, and especially your art.and how you make all of us feel we are not so weird after all :).
Life is GOOD.
Have a productive March, Misty Mawn!

[caroline]

Hi Misty! I'm so happy to be back reading your words and gazing at your paintings. They're so comforting and inspiring. I so recognise in me what you're describing, including the vagueness. The Nietsche quote really spoke to me too, thank you. x